NOT MONTHLY update! (and a low-key vent)

 yurrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!

so i skipped a month for the not monthly update and to be quite honest, not much has gone down

therapy has still been going smooth, its october and i wanna try a pumpkin spice latte for the first time. maybe those are up already

i'm trying to run stage crew for theatre again, that was really fun last year! a definite highlight of my sophomore year. im also doing a bass guitar audition for a live music performance so that's funnn
i still fuckin suck at bass hahaha, i'm not a very good player right now but i'm still gonna audition because it seems fun

ap computer science has been a weird mix of me not doing any work out of boredom and accidentally going past the curriculum because my nerdy ass is trying to do shit that we havent gotten to in the lesson yet lmfao
its been quite fun though and i've been enjoying my time there. the teacher is really cool and the people at my table are quite fun to talk to

my main issues are procrastination, consistency and discipline
i keep pushing deadlines in my head when they arent flexible, i still dont do any fucking homework and i keep making promises to people, not even just in school just in general, that i continue to break and embarrass myself and waste other people's time 

im not feeling very good with myself but hey! at least im doing okay at school! and education is my top priority anyways so nothing else matters, including my feelings!!!!!

i've been thinking of making a vent page that gets updated at random whenever i wanna whine about shit

shoutout to the randomly consistent hundreds of people that read these posts, im assuming 99% of them are bots lmfao
but still, thank you to my friends who read my blog
i promise at some point i'll write an actually good post and not just another public diary entry 

thats mostly it for now, ttyl <3