sadotterz's blog

Team Fortress 2. A lot of people play it but the game in it's modern state has made many people feel as though that the game has lost its shine, its glimmer. TF2 is "past its prime." That's why a group of people ended up taking and rebuilding older versions of TF2 onto the NEW SDK that Valve just released. And thus: Team Fortress 2: Gold Rush - The Source Mod was introduced. (Technically the mod was introduced way before Valve released the TF2 SDK but whatever.)   The mod's being worked on my someone named Conneath and Jasper as well as many other contributors and team members. They basically port old TF2 files while still modernizing them and adding small quality of life improvements as well as keeping that old TF2 magic. They describe "The Golden Age of TF2" as 2007 to 2010, just before the Mann-Conomy update. My personal favorite part about the source mod is the fanbase, a group of people who loved and have played TF2 for years and try to have fun i...

alright, im FINALLY talking about something else ive been thinking alot about my music and its quality and ive found myself really thinking about how much ive been releasing. i released two albums in 2024, space frogs and i'm a cat, meow . the former being a full 30 minutes in 12* tracks and the latter being only 14 minutes in 8 songs.  I released two albums in one year . and listening back to them, they sound good! but i feel like they could've been a million times better. i'm gonna start trying to take more time in honing my music down so my next album is much much better. i really wanna pull a "sports in '83" if you catch my drift. really come into my own, commercially and artistically.  I was just really... kinda sad that ive been taking so long to come up with some good music but really im focusing on the wrong thing. i need to actually figure out my tone as a musician before creating tracks.  quality, over quantity. *i dont really count "birthday...

 lmfao every post on this dumbass blog has been a rant, i really wish i could gain the energy to write something that isnt just "wahhhhhhh" i love "wah wah wah" by king gizzard and the lizard wizard off their album "nonagon infinity" apologies, got a little off track but uhhh yeah i was gonna talk about how... i really do need to talk about something that isnt just my feelings or how my day is going. oh and dont get the impression these are gonna be updated daily, this is just a spoof, i might possibly forget about this blog like maybe next week... that better not happen i spend a full 1 dollar and 16 cents on this domain name

   you ever wake up, feeling like absolute shit? thats literally it, thats the whole post, it's just me complaining because holy shit ive felt so horrible this ENTIRE DAY i literally cant  i love this blog because its literally a great outlet for my emo ass feelings at the moment "WAHH IM SO LONELY" "WAHH IM SO UGLY" "WAHH IM SO STUPID" etc, etc. i'm trying to look into therapy but i just dont know how. 90% of the friends i have all got therapy from a close source like a parent or a friend. i keep asking but just.. forget to see. theres this place by my house, like a 5 minute walk im really hoping i can get a job there. i could make minimum wage, which, for someone who currently makes $0/hr IS A PRETTY BIG FUCKIN' IMPROVEMENT   alrighty thats all, baiiiiiii

 So! I finally started a fuckin' blog! Took me long enough.  Recently, this valentine's day I took a day off of Discord considering how much I really just didn't wanna deal with sociality and stuff. It felt nice but I miss my boyfriend and such... jeez I hope no one I know personally finds this.   HERE'S TO MORE POSTS!! (most likely inconsistent posts but what're you gonna do? :shrugging_person:  /p/vent.html